the peace of wild things

I never heard of the author Wendell Berry until last year. In a fortuitous coincidence, I came across his writings in Oxford educated Sarah Clarkson’s book Book Girl and in the irreverent, but ruggedly individualist-comedic Nick Offerman’s Gumption. I was piqued by the samples of writing, and after receiving his Leavings compilation of poetry via interlibrary loans, I was mesmerized.

This month I was also able to dust off my camera lens and embark on a photoshoot. It was a triumph…my violinist-model serenaded me with Beethoven and Elvis Presley whilst we traipsed around moss ladened ground and heard turtles and larger reptiles slither into the marshes.

So, to honor the legend that is Wendell, I’m accompanying some slivers of his poetry and quotations to the portraits we accomplished.

(“How to Be A Poet”)

Breathe with unconditional breath   
the unconditioned air.   
Shun electric wire.   
Communicate slowly. Live   
a three-dimensioned life;   
stay away from screens.   
Stay away from anything   
that obscures the place it is in.   
There are no unsacred places;   
there are only sacred places   
and desecrated places. 
Accept what comes from silence.   
Make the best you can of it.   
Of the little words that come   
out of the silence, like prayers   
prayed back to the one who prays,   
make a poem that does not disturb   
the silence from which it came.




come in beneath,

the blessed and the blessing trees,

though I am silent, there is singing around me.

though I am dark, there is vision around me.

though I am heavy,

there is flight around me. 





It is not from ourselves that we learn to be better than we are. 





But a mute blessedness
Exceeding all distress,
The fresh light stained a hundred shades of green.






This, I thought, is what is meant by ‘thy will be done’ in the Lord’s Prayer, which I had prayed time and again without thinking about it. It means that your will and God’s will may not be the same. It means there’s a good possibility that you won’t get what you pray for. It means that in spite of your prayers you are going to suffer.












(from “The bell calls in town”)

I leave work’s daily rule
And come here to this restful place
Where music stirs the pool
And from high stations of the air
Fall notes of wordless grace,
Strewn remnants of the primal Sabbath’s hymn.





Uproar of wheel and fire
That has contained us like a cell
Opens and lets us hear
A stillness longer than all time
Where leaf and song fulfill
The passing light, pass with the light, return,
Renewed, as in rhyme.
This is no human vision
Subject to our revision;
God’s eye holds every leaf as light is worn.



We travelers, walking to the sun,

can’t see
 ahead, but looking back the very light

That blinded us shows us the way we came,

Along which blessings now appear, risen

As if from sightlessness to sight, and we,

By blessing brightly lit, keep going toward

That blessed light that yet to us is dark.



(“The Peace of Wild Things”)

I come into the peace of wild things who do not tax their lives with forethought of grief… For a time I rest in the grace of the world, and am free.



2019 in Literary Review

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For whatever reason, my Goodreads challenge insisted I read 69 books, but in actuality the “adult” books came closer to 50. I definitely had more read-aloud investment with the kids, and the children’s books that I wrote short reviews on made it to the Goodreads list. This year I discovered my love for memoirs. While I appreciate biographies, memoirs have that personal touch that embed the lessons into my mind and heart. Towards the end of 2019 I invested in reading more plays and poetry. I want to incorporate more of that as well going into 2020.

and all is undismayed

“We moved to North Korea to escape from our life of poverty in Japan. We didn’t see ourselves as taking part in some heroic endeavor to build a future socialist utopia.”

Thirteen year old Masaji Ishikawa, half Korean and half Japanese, was hauled to North Korea with the assistance of the Japanese Red Cross and dumped on its shores in 1960. His father was tired of being persecuted for his Korean race in Japan. He had grown to believe the pernicious lies told by the League of Koreans in Japan. That it would be like returning home, to a paradise where there would be jobs aplenty and opportunities everywhere.


After being deposited on the shores of North Korea, they were met with a harsh reality. It was anything but paradise. It was hell. Their first meal in that coveted motherland was dog food, which they attempted to swallow with noses pinched. It was an omen for how the government treated its people. Like beasts to be controlled and humiliated.


“The landscape was dreary, still scarred by bomb craters left over from the Korean War. Once we arrived, we were interviewed by officials who decided each person’s future occupation and accommodation.


They were stripped of their few valued possessions. Electric appliances, watches, semi-decent clothing. The secret police knew it would make fellow citizens acutely aware of their poverty to be exposed to such.


Masaji Ishikawa struggled in school, but applied himself while grappling with the new Korean language. He was bullied for being part Japanese. He despised the mantras they had to recite. The leader of Korea, Grand Marshal Kim Il-Sung, had a Ten Commandments (inspired from the Abrahamic) that was drilled daily into the young children.   We must stay loyal to the Great Supreme Leader. To his revolutionary ideas and to the glory of socialism.


Masaji wished to study physics. The subject fascinated him. But he was denied the privilege of pursuit. He was in the lowest caste of the social strata, the public official told him. He would never be able to attend the university, or even serve in the military. Therefore, he was given the role of farm laborer.


Secret police constantly monitored every family. No matter how much effort you put forth in your assigned job, you always received the same payment for your work.


For thirty years, Masaji endured unimaginable horrors. He lost his parents to undiagnosed and untreated conditions because they couldn’t afford the hospital and doctor visits. He stole clothes off a neighbor’s clothesline in an attempt to dress his 47 year old deceased mother in clothes that weren’t ridden with holes. The clothes he took were still tattered, and the nails he tried to drive in her coffin were not straight like the ones in Japan. He cried over the way he couldn’t even secure the lid properly. He cried as he took his motherless-newborn son door to door, humiliated to inquire, but desperately seeking a wet nurse for his newborn.


That’s when I broke down reading this book. I shoved it face-down and heaved hollow sobs into my hands. In our culture, men who cry are viewed as an anomaly. Men who freely acknowledge their tears are even more so. But this author, in all his 74 years of lived experiences with horrors unimaginable, articulates these hideous moments with a sincere frankness.


His family survived on acorns and roots and weeds. He marveled at how starvation turns the human face into a ghoul, how lips recede and reveal teeth that appear bared at all times- how noses turn into two slits. People were constantly perishing in the street. It got to the point where he stopped stopping to see who it was. Rumors of cannibalism abounded. He tries to commit suicide by hanging, only to have his death thwarted by a coworker who came back early from lunch and heaved him off the noose.


I haven’t felt so sickened by a memoir since Elie Wiesel’s Night. I have grown up richly blessed with health, family, resources. Reading these accounts is brutal, but necessary. I have never known what it was like to wonder where my next meal is coming from. Or wonder if secret police might come steal the chickens my father bought, because “you can’t have more than your neighbors are assigned to their weekly rations.”  Or be told I absolutely cannot ever work in  my dream field, because my caste is the wrong one. This world is so unbearably dark, and certain corrupt men in power have ravaged entire generations. And will continue to do so. Masaji did the unthinkable and managed to escape from North Korea, but left behind his family. To this day, he doesn’t know entirely who is still alive and who has died from hunger.


“I often think about what would have become of me if I’d stayed in North Korea. I would probably have starved too. But at least I’d have died in someone’s arms with my family gathered around me. We’d have said our goodbyes. What chance of that now? People talk about God. Although I can’t see him myself, I still pray for a happy ending.”


There is a line from one of my favorite tales from childhood that I cling to in The Return of the King. It is uttered by Frodo’s loyal friend Sam Gamgee.

The Lord of the Rings saga in its grand finale depicts the ageless trope of the ultimate fairytale.

That a King, a hero, will rise up and bring healing to the land and its people.


A similar thought is encapsulated in a poem of Wendell Berry, another author whose body of work I’ve grown to cherish:


And this, then,

Is the vision of that Heaven of which

We have heard, where those who love

Each other have forgiven each other,

Where, for that, the leaves are green,

The light a music in the air,

And all is unentangled,

And all is undismayed.

In this time of Advent, my thoughts leap to this hope of a Redeemer. This glorious wonder that is the Incarnation of Christ. That He would deign to become fully human and join us in all our miserable, vulnerable state. As a tiny, helpless infant, hungry for milk, possibly cold, in want of clean water for a bath, and placed in a manger. (And despite popular decorations purporting otherwise, a barn is a disgusting place with fecal matter embedded in the wood and ridden with rodents. When a video of an inmate giving birth in a Lysol splattered jail cell caused great viral consternation earlier this year, think of the utter insanity of it all that the King of the World should be subjected to worse. But that is entirely the point.)


A man of sorrows. Despised and rejected by mankind.


Our King. Our Victor to bring everything sad untrue.


“O Come, O Come, Emmanuel” is a hymn that perfectly represents this Advent season.

Veni, Veni, Emmanuel


As we sing this in church, we reflect on his first coming, but we also intensely anticipate Christ’s second coming.


Where our King will make everything sad come untrue.

Where all will be unentangled, and all will be undismayed.

Redemption in Tolstoy

When Sarah Clarkson was pregnant with her first child, the Oxford scholar took to writing a book dedicated to the babe with the intent to inspire her to grow into a reader. The book, aptly titled Book Girl, is a glorious tribute to the power books have in profoundly shaping the person we long to become. Image result for book girl sarah clarkson

In the book, she discusses the Christian fiction category at the booksellers, filled to the brim with “Christanese” speak, but inadvertently featuring a secular plot and form. She then contrasted these books with great classics, like those of Tolstoy’s Anna Karenina, books written in secular text, but depicting a vividly Christian worldview.


“Anna Karenina is about an affair, while bookstore may carry ½ dozen Christian romance with couples who get to their wedding with nary a kiss. Dialogue may include verses straight out of the Bible, while Anna Karenina revolves round the decadence of Russian high class society, gossipy intrigues. But many “Christian” romance stories focus on a secular model of romance and self-fulfillment, where emotion is valued as truth, where trouble miraculously disappears. Anna Karenina wrestles with desires of heart and integrity—and handling the consequences of “listening to your heart.”



In the musical theatre world, I recently discovered Nastasha, Pierre and The Great Comet of 1812. Its plot is lifted from Tolstoy’s other well-known tome, War and Peace. It’s been out longer than Hamilton, and yet am just now personally discovering it. Why did it take me this long to find out?? Lin Manuel Miranda was inspired to cast Phillipa Soo as Eliza based on her fiery performance of Natasha in this show back in the initial cast.


It has a bit of a messy start. The original performer they had settled on to play Pierre was Mandy Patinkin. Patinkin of Criminal Minds, Inigo Montoya, and Yentl fame. He would have been INCREDIBLE. But he voluntarily bowed out of production after a tweet storm originated over the blind casting fan-favorite for Pierre hadn’t been chosen.


I wish recordings exist of Patinkin in the role. He would have interpreted the depressed, earnest Pierre with appropriate angst. The alternate who was ultimately picked, Josh Groban, is vocally amazing—obviously– and in the glimpses of live performances I have come across, he is decent at capturing the man’s rage and sensitivity. But he seemed miscast in that he was too youthful to portray him with all the weight of aged bitterness in inherent to the role.


Props to Groban in extending his talents into the acting realm."Natasha, Pierre & the Great Comet of 1812" to Close in September After Casting Controversy

The music in the show is a heady conglomerate of musical genres. Russian folk (most obvious choice, since it’s a dinner theatre reenactment of Tolstoy’s War & Peace), 80s pop, EDM.


His musical stylings to character development are replete within the score.

Take Natasha’s big solo, in which the bride-to-be gushes over her supposed devotion to Andrei despite aaa disastrous meet up with the future in laws. There is a parallel 4ththat rocks as a triplet over the bass clef chords. The music lacks a stable center, which is indicative of Natasha’s own lack of stability in her “love” for Andrei. One song later, the naïve 19 year old is swept away by the pompous, preening Anatole at the opera, and she commits wholeheartedly to a man who is already married, a fact she didn’t even think to inquire on.


There are chilling, beautiful moments of dissonance. When Pierre survives a duel, his song “Dust and Ashes,” conjures up a perfect blend of bitterness over wasted years and hope for salvation. “Is this how I die?”


Groban’s tender and fast vibrato provide a gorgeous vehicle for the song’s message. By the end of the musical, in the song referencing the show’s title, “The Great Comet of 1812,” Pierre as a protagonist finds meaning in this glorious display of creation. Tolstoy used nature not as a background to the plot, but as a physical manifestation of his character’s own inner turmoils. While the comet heralded apocalyptic doom for others, Pierre sees it as a beacon of hope and renewal for his own mature life.


“I gaze joyfully


And this bright star,

Having traced its parabola

With inexpressible speed

Through immeasurable space

Seems suddenly

To have stopped

Stopped for me


It seems to me

That this comet

Feels me

Feels my softened and uplifted soul

And my newly melted heart

Now blossoming

Into a new life”

lost at sea

It is isolating to be a mom. Yes, it’s isolating to be frail and elderly, or to be a year deep in med school, or to be the first female president. But motherhood is the territory I’m currently navigating.


I know that seems contradictory. After all, what other time in your life will you constantly be surrounded by persons that vie for your presence the second they open their eyes until the second they close them?

Their feet tumble after you when you head to the bathroom, when you go fold laundry, when you fetch the mail.



And I love it. I really do. For YEARS I craved that precious fellowship, and felt I might never reach the privilege of being a mother.


But here are the conditions in place for the isolation. First off, it begins with a major life event: the birth.


The 21st century birth in my country is most women’s first exposure to the hospital. Many times it is the first time you get an IV. Or find yourself signing consents for major surgery. And then you are experiencing the subsequent blood loss. (One doctor who recently graduated from med school told me the bloodiest area of medicine by far is labor and delivery. The amount of men that pass out watching their wives give birth is also a testament to that) And then the searing stitches. And if you had a c/section, the abdominal muscles are crying out at having been torn through and folded back together. And… guess what? In this time of complete vulnerability, you are suddenly and utterly deprived of sleep.



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you are responsible for a feeble, helpless person, one who is wholly dependent on you for sustaining them. For bringing them to appointments, for recording wet and dirty diapers, for navigating this confusing “instinctual” world of nursing. Nursing, as some of my CLC (certified lactation counselor) will say, is like a 2nd labor in itself. Especially when it’s your first. AS instinctual as it’s supposed to be, it sure doesn’t feel natural until weeks in and you’ve finally established of rhythm. When they do sleep, you stare at them, assessing their sleep mattress, ensuring safe sleep standards, and checking the rise and fall of their chest until you feel satisfied that they are fine. Then you check on them five minutes later in a panic, convinced the battery may have fallen out of your plugged-in video camera and you couldn’t hear those imaginary cries for help that were firing off in your mind.


The last night I was pregnant with Titus, I went to bed with fireworks blazing outside. A friend texted me, “you going to stay up until midnight?” It was the last day of the year of 2015. It was 9pm. I texted back, “no, because next year I’m gonna do plenty of midnight hours. 😛 ”


Oh, how true that was! I was admitted the following morning. I was so jittery with excitement in the hospital that I couldn’t sleep but for 15 minute stretches every couple hours at night. By the time we were discharged, 5 days later–thanks to the IV antibiotics my son had to receive– I maybe had slept a combined total of 8 hours according to my handy, dandy Fitbit. Not unusual fare for people inducted in the halls of parenthood.


We went home. The sleep onslaught escalated. My 9 lb 5 oz goliath baby wanted to nurse every hour and remain in our arms constantly. I remember texting the lactation consultant, my eyes bleary with want of sleep that I could barely see the iPhone screen at 2pm. “Is this NORMAL??” I essentially whined. Her immediate response was validating and warm and filled with suggestions and encouragement, but I fell asleep on the shag carpet of the nursery before I could articulate a response back.



When my husband went back to working nights, there was one time I was dragging myself from room to room, holding Titus in a cradle position, just praying for him to fall asleep long enough so I could try and close my own eyes. I was playing my Titus sleep playlist on Spotify, making my usual trek around the house to lull him to sleep. I checked on him 20 minutes into the ritual and was thrilled to see him  snoozing. As I quickly headed to the nursery, I veered off to the side in an ill-fated exhaustion-stumble, and his bald, little noggin banged emphatically against the door frame.


He instantly woke up, peals of distress ringing out anew.


The sleep deprivation, the inability to waltz into and out of a store without at least two tantrums, the paranoia that swoops in when you look away to check a deal on a shelf and your child suddenly disappears, only to be found nestled behind the peanut butter tower at Kroger.


It’s exhausting! But, in our isolation, we have to recognize we are not alone.



We are all in this together. The mothers who were in our shoes, twenty, forty years ago, assure us that the time will pass all too quickly.



We see the memes of how many Saturdays we have left from now until our child’s graduation from high school. The closer I get to 3-0, the more I realize that I have failed to live in the moment. My new prayer is that I will do more rejoicing in the moment and not awaiting the next phase. Too many times I chose discontentment because I wasn’t a) done with nursing school or b) finished with NCLEX or c) married or d) in a house and not an apartment or e) didn’t have babies to hold or f) had night shifts at work to contend with.


Yes, it is isolating; but babies are only young once. At the same time, to help refresh our souls for this season, we should take advantage of self-care. The mother’s day out programs, the offers for free babysitting,  the lunch delivered by kind-hearted individuals from church, our efforts to read books to stimulate our minds or listen to podcasts while the babies nap.


One cautionary tale I’ve experienced are the deleterious effects social media can have in search for community. The omnipresent social media “mommy” groups. When I had my son, I was added to a frenzy of local mom groups. I would surf through the posts and find that the majority of them revolved around complaints and gripes. This doctor treated us rudely when we said no to vaccines. This husband of mine refuses to pitch in with the housework. This landlord won’t honor our deposit now that we’re moving out. My M-I-L fed my kid red dye when I have repeatedly told her NOT to. And so on.


It’s reflective on human nature that negative posts generate the most attention. Neil Postman in his 1980s book Amusing Ourselves to Death discusses this demoralizing feedback system via the information-action ratio; that we are constantly besought with a deluge of news and it is impossible for us to personally respond to each item. When we feed our brains constant noise of other people’s mundane grievances, we tip the scales in our brain with negative information. We become full of clutter; it is useless clutter that does not edify. We become numb to actual grievances by normalizing ambivalence as we scroll through.


Secondly, there is an insidious prevalence of MLM companies pushed in these mom threads. I struggle to form friendships in mommy groups, because each friend request I’ve ever gotten was immediately followed with a “hey hun, you seem like you could really benefit from this product.” It is even more disheartening when it’s an old friend you haven’t seen in years. They pop you an IM, asking how you’ve been and would you care to meet for lunch, but come to find out the REAL reason they’re contacting you is because they’ve discovered this AMAZING new eye cream/lip gloss/weight loss shake/energy pills/aromatherapy/wraps/candles/handbags etc.




I don’t support multilevel marketing strategies. These pyramid schemes (oh, but those are illegal many will say, yet draw out a literal pyramid when showing their system, aka  Michael in The Office) prey on stay-at-home moms with the false narrative that you can make money by selling their product in this misconstrued business model. I fell for a few a couple years ago under the notion I really was supporting a friend’s venture, and paid inordinate amounts of money trying to support people over products that were decidedly cheap and not FDA approved. The company founders, such as Beachbody or LulaRoe, thrive on the notion of tribalism. Be part of our team! You may win a trip for a cruise. Or access to paid weight loss surgery. Check out this documentary from Vice on LLR. I found it a devastating insight into the industry and its toxic repercussions.


How did you make tangible efforts to combat that feeling of isolation and fatigue in your early years as a mother? Do you think social media has made it easier or more difficult for us as a community? How can we combat the pitfalls?




Book Review: Educated by Tara Westover

Tara was born in 1986, yet her memoir conjures up enough survivalism to fill a John Steinbeck novel. This was not at all what I expected. She explores relationships with her family, the abuse and neglect she experienced as the daughter growing up in a radical Mormon sect, as well as the mental illness that perpetuated the abuse. Her story was mesmerizing. I share some similarities to Tara. I am close to her in age. I was homeschooled, never took an official exam until the ACT, and grew up on a homestead milking goats and breaking horses amidst a bevy of siblings.

But that is where the similarities end.

While my own parents purchased some crates of seeds in preparation for Y2K, Tara’s dug an entire cellar under the hill for gasoline and created an armory for the End of Times. Tara was never registered with a birth certificate, and never given any vaccinations. Insurance payments were stopped. Her father was the powering force behind the mistrust of the government.

“My father was not a tall man but he was able to command a room. He had a presence about him, the solemnity of an oracle. His hands were thick and leathery—the hands of a man who’d been hard at work all his life—and they grasped the Bible firmly.”

Her mother was a lay midwife who would charge $500 a delivery. She embraced the natural world and claimed that modern medicine was evil, so blood pressure was treated with hawthorne and st john’s wort treated preterm contractions.

Cloistered away at Buck’s Peak mountain in rural Idaho, Tara would help her mother mix cloudy mixtures and measure oils, or assist her father sorting scrap in a junkyard.

It seemed that every chapter was filled with an encounter with a near death injury. Multiple car accidents, bruised and bleeding brains, severe third degree burns, a 26 week baby delivered at home. All treated at home with a grim determination because of a pernicious view of the medical establishment.

This story is inspiring as we witness Tara’s ultimate decision to leave her family in order to develop an education. Her words have a rawness as she details her intellectual epiphanies as she navigates the outside world.

At BYU, she tells of how she innocently asked what the Holocaust was during a lecture in art class. Everyone was appalled, misunderstanding her ignorance for that of a Holocaust-denier.
After that horrific misunderstanding, she resolved to never let her ignorance get the better of her, and she continued to read and read.

I loved her passages where she details her awe for learning different concepts. Passion inspires passion, and I’m inspired to teach myself more from authors I formerly hadn’t navigated based upon her assessment of the lessons they impart.

“I’d come to BYU to study music, so that one day I could direct a church choir. But that semester—the fall of my junior year—I didn’t enroll in a single music course. I couldn’t have explained why I dropped advanced music theory in favor of geography and comparative politics, or gave up sight-singing to take History of the Jews. But when I’d seen those courses in the catalog, and read their titles aloud, I had felt something infinite, and I wanted a taste of that infinity.”

A taste of that infinity.

She was recommended by a professor to apply for a program at Cambridge, and she was accepted.

“The first time I saw King’s College, Cambridge, I didn’t think I was dreaming, but only because my imagination had never produced anything so grand.”

“I attended a seminary on Wednesday afternoons, where I noticed two women, Katrina and Sophie, who nearly always sat together. I never spoke to them until one afternoon a few weeks before Christmas, when they asked if I’d like to get a coffee. I’d never “gotten a coffee” before—I’d never even tasted coffee, because it is forbidden by the church—but I followed them across the street and into a café. The cashier was impatient so I chose at random. She passed me a doll-sized cup with a tablespoon of mud-colored liquid in it, and I looked longingly at the foamy mugs Katrina and Sophie carried to our table. They debated concepts from the lecture; I debated whether to drink my coffee. They used complex phrases with ease. Some of them, like “the second wave,” I’d heard before even if I didn’t know what they meant; others, like “the hegemonic masculinity,” I couldn’t get my tongue around let alone my mind. I’d taken several sips of the grainy, acrid fluid before I understood that they were talking about feminism. I stared at them as if they were behind glass. I’d never heard anyone use the word “feminism” as anything but a reprimand. At BYU, “You sound like a feminist” signaled the end of the argument. It also signaled that I had lost. I left the café and went to the library. After five minutes online and a few trips to the stacks, I was sitting in my usual place with a large pile of books written by what I now understood to be second-wave writers—Betty Friedan, Germaine Greer, Simone de Beauvoir. I slammed them shut. I returned to the Internet and then to the shelves, where I exchanged the books of the second wave for those that preceded the first—Mary Wollstonecraft and John Stuart Mill. I read through the afternoon and into the evening, developing for the first time a vocabulary for the uneasiness I’d felt since childhood. From the moment I had first understood that my brother Richard was a boy and I was a girl, I had wanted to exchange his future for mine. My future was motherhood; his, fatherhood. They sounded similar but they were not. To be one was to be a decider. To preside. To call the family to order. To be the other was to be among those called. I knew my yearning was unnatural. This knowledge, like so much of my self-knowledge, had come to me in the voice of people I knew, people I loved. All through the years that voice had been with me, whispering, wondering, worrying. That I was not right. That my dreams were perversions. That voice had many timbres, many tones. Sometimes it was my father’s voice; more often it was my own. I carried the books to my room and read through the night. I loved the fiery pages of Mary Wollstonecraft, but there was a single line written by John Stuart Mill that, when I read it, moved the world: “It is a subject on which nothing final can be known.” The subject Mill had in mind was the nature of women. Mill claimed that women have been coaxed, cajoled, shoved and squashed into a series of feminine contortions for so many centuries, that it is now quite impossible to define their natural abilities or aspirations. Blood rushed to my brain; I felt…”

And onward she goes, emboldened in her pursuit of knowledge.

Then she was able to get into Harvard. Her gritty determination to succeed in acquiring a doctorate is a force to be reckoned with.

“I began to read—Hume, Rousseau, Smith, Godwin, Wollstonecraft and Mill. I lost myself in the world they had lived in, the problems they had tried to solve. I became obsessed with their ideas about the family—with how a person ought to weigh their special obligations to kin against their obligations to society as a whole. Then I began to write, weaving the strands I’d found in Hume’s Principles of Morals with filaments from Mill’s The Subjection of Women. It was good work, I knew it even as I wrote it, and when I’d finished I set it aside. It was the first chapter of my PhD.”

Throughout the book, you keep hoping for her to find reconciliation with her family. But that hope was not realized, and only time will tell if she ever does.

I readily confess that I found her book captivating. I’m not surprised that she was heavily recommended by Oprah, Bill Gates, and Michelle Obama. Since her book lacked pictures, I admit I was seized with a curiosity to look her up online and put a image to her face. I came across an interview she had with Ellen Degeneres. Her eloquence and poise made for an impactful talk show segment. It hearkened home for me the desperate fact that we need more authors and book featured on talk shows, so we as a culture can help better navigate the narratives that drive our society.

I look forward to seeing what she creates next in the literary world.